I want to post something during the Hari Raya break via my hp but unfortunately I was not able to log in. Anyway, this Hari Raya was the most difficult and saddest Hari Raya. It was our first raya without Abah. Not all of us came back for the first day of Raya. This year was the in-laws' turn. Ayus & family, the boys and my family were with mak on the first day of raya. We went to the grave to offer prayer to Abah. Sedihnya, terasa kosong masa sambut Hari Raya. I still remember the last raya with Abah. Abah was smiling away with all the grandchildren around him. Sarah was on his lap. He looked so fine and happy.

We made Bi hun Soto and ketupat Palas (first time ever). No lemang and ketupat daun kelapa this year. Mak prepared rendang ayam. Ayus arrived on Saturday night. She cooked kuah kacang for the ketupat (brand nona!). Normally abah will find the daun kelapa to make sarung ketupat. Not this year, no more.....

The second day, we had tahlil for Abah. Abg Labu, Abg Bad and Kak Nor came over to visit Mak. Then Achik and Pak Jang came. Mak cried when she saw Pak Jang came. That was the first time he came and asked about her after Abah's gone. I dont understand it why Pak Jang didnt bother to visit her own sister. Entahlah.

Today is mak's birthday. I am going to call her later to wish her Happy Birthday. Semoga Allah memberi mak kekuatan and kesihatan untuk meneruskan kehidupannya tanpa Abah. Amin.

visit this blog to read on Raya with a difference at the perantauan http://kakteh.blogspot.com/. It really touches my heart and it reminded me of mak. Raya with a Difference...........

Abah's gone...

Probably, this is one of the last postings I will made here. Have to find the motivation to write again. My abah passed away on 11 July 2009 at 3.59 am in Hospital Putrajaya. He was 65 year-old. Tak tahu apa nak tulih lagi. Semuanya ada dalam memori, vividly. My last time with him at the hospital, bagi dia makan ubat, minum air. Temankan dia solat. Tenangkan dia. At 2.45 am, I saw him unconsious but breathing at the hospital bed. 3.59 am, he was gone.

Abah, you will always be in my heart. Tak puas lagi rasanya nak berbakti pada abah. I love you abah.