Update at 10.35 pm, photo taken from http://thyroid.about.com/gi/dynamic.

Mine is a bit worse that what you saw in this photo, the incision is about 4 inches wide. Photo shown here is may be about 2-3 inches. Still swollen and stiffed.

Another day of trying to make the best out my condition now. It has been difficult actually, with a neck like this. My bath is lower the neck level so just imagine how unsatisfactorily is the feel. Ok, sabarlah skit lagi. The sticthes is healing very well, I hope it wont leave any scar or keloid like Ina's. Still feel a bit tight around the neck. Other than that, I think I am ok. Oh ya, my voice is yet to recover. Hopefully soon.

What else ye, Siti has gone back to her house in Klang with the baby. Mak ikut sama. So, it is just me and bibik and Sarah at home. sigh.

No activity whatsoever now, so boringlah. I guess this is the time I have to look back and focus on what I want to achieve. Dunia and Akhirat. Allah tooks my organs one by one. I had my gallbladder removed in 1997, then my tonsil in Dec 2008 and now my thyroid. I was constantly reminded by Him that all these are pinjaman and they have to be returned sooner or later. Kalau tak sedar lagi tu, tak tahu nak cakap apa lagi. Anyway, I just pray that I would be a better person with akhlak yang mulia (with less organ inside my body!) and whoever I made them angry or terasa hati, please forgive me.

That's all for today.

I SURVIVE! Alhamdullillah, praised to Almighty.

I survive the 2-hour operation to remove my ailing thyroid but it was difficult experience this time. First thing first, I am not in pain like before. I had several organ removal operation before this and I was in pain but not this time. So, going into the OT was really scary. Anyway, thank you to all the wishes.

Amir was really helpful, he took care of me especially the night after the operation. I could hardly open my eyes, couldnt even lift my leg because of the anasthetics. Suapkan makanan but of course after two spoons of nasi, I couldnt eat anymore. Thank you Sayang. But I send him home after two nights with me at the hospital. He slept like a log! Dah tak boleh mintak tolong lagi dah.

So far, i oklah. The doctor is able to preserve my calcium gland so I dont have to take any calcium pills as a supplement. Suara is still serak like Ella(that's what the other manggisians said after they visited me td) but I hope to regain my voice back soon. Leher still bengkak and uncomfortable. So, doakanlah agar cepat sembuh.

It has been a while since I blog. A lot of things happen since then.

Ok, first thing first:

1) I am going for a long medical leave from 16th Mar. Most probably for a month or so. Nothing really life threatening medical reason but I need to deal with it now. So, friends and foes, please forgive me. I have forgiven all of you too. Manalah tau kan. Anyway, my doctor said eventhough there is risks to it but my body is at the optimum level to go for the operation. I hope I do well.

2) Secondly, things are quite tense at the office currently. Somebody is really upset with me right now. But, I guess I am just too busy and too tense about the operation to think about it, I just let it be. Entahlah, too many things in my head right now. Nak siapkan macam-macam before I go for the long medical. So, people, if you come to know about the story from that somebody, it is up to you to believe it and make your own judgement. I dont really care what you think of me. (Arni sure tak percaya apa I tulis nih being a neutral expert!) I just want to do my job. period!

3)Thirdly, MySarah and Izzaty were down with HFMD last week. For four days, MySarah only survive on Soy Milk kotak. She cant drink her milk at all. Izzaty was much better coz she was not that serious. The fact that she is 6-year and senang nak bagi ubat mades her recovery much faster. But, they are ok now.Phew!!!

4) Forthly, I am still struggling with Aisyah. She has no sense of urgency at all. Homework to her is two hours of writing ayat in Bahasa or two questions of Mathematic.

Ok, apa lagi, other than work. Oh ya, I went to Digital Mall in USJ this evening and saw something I like. So, it is either E71 or E66 . What do you think?

Abah's monthly check up turned out ok. Nothing is wrong with him. That's what the doctor said. Most probably, the pain that he felt at the left side is due to operation that he had but nothing serious. The doctor gave him some pills and that's about it. Tak tahulah.

Mak told me yesterday night that there's one night Abah had a nightmare. He was reading a surah from the Quran. Mak did not wake him coz he was reading it correctly. When he woke up, he told mak that the lady who is always in his dream said that somebody is trying to put a spell on Mak and Abah but Abah is the only yang kena. Something was buried at one of the tiang rumah. But in the dream, Abah had removed it.

Not long before that, Mak told me that memang ada kesan of somebody tanam something kat belakang rumah. Fiqar wanted to dig it out and see what was it but Wan tak bagi. So, tak tahulah but I just pray that Allah lindungilah both Abah and Mak. Abah sentiasa sakit at specific time only. Other time, he is ok. I told Mak to get help, spritually.

Taking about paranormal activity, here's some photo send by Marini:

Kengkawan semua,

Ini ada berita tergempar.... di sewaktu matahari tegak satu objek tak berkepala kelihatan di tempat parking kereta bersebelahan tiang bendera. Objek tak berkepala tersebut dipercayai adalah seorang buruh cina yang telah dihukum pancung oleh tentera jepun semasa perang dunia ke-2. Adalah dipercayai kawasan ini adalah tempat perkuburan mangsa pancung ............ HATI-HATI.... terutama waktu matahari tegak... atau dekat waktu maghrib.

AWAS berita ini hanya untuk orang tertentu sahaja.... secret and confidential... untuk mengelakan timbul kekacauan dan ketakutan warga R&D ... yang mana boleh menggangu prestasi syarikat.... nanti tak da bonus maa...............

Nukilan
-ATM-

I'm back!! Many many things happened in 2008.

Abah is still not well. He still having problem to pass motion. No cancer or tumor. That has been checked and re-checked by the hospital. I guess his intestines is just too lazy to work anymore. He is coming over next week for another check up.

Shukri - graduated last year (convo in August 2008) and now posted at Sekolah Teknik Kuala Lipis. I now he will do something in language. When he was just a little boy, probably around 4 or 5, I would watched Sesame Street with him.

Danial - graduated from Politeknik Kuantan last year too (cant remember which month), got a job, stayed on the job for two months and now jobless!! He was retrenched, the factory closed down. LIFO!

Bibik - she went back to Indon since two weeks before hari raya aidilfitri and havent been back since. Sigh....! Fening Weh kepala, well actually penatlah badan. But she coming back end of this month.

Kakak Aisyah - she is in year 6 now. Yes UPSR! Adei, Ummi dia yang tension. She is happy as the butterfly but I could see some improvement on her, especially her math. Semenjak pegi Kumon, her math congak dah improve banyak. She can add, substract, divide and multiply without much effort like before.

Kakak Izzaty - she is 6. Baru tindik telinga but dah dua kali hilang subang. Sigh! Anyway, ada sekali tu, she came back from school telling me, she wanted a pet. This is my conversation with her:

Izzaty: Ummi, kakak nak sgt pet. Tapi doggie tak boleh. Kakak nak baby cat ajelah
Ummi: Kakak nak hamster tak?
Izzaty: Ummi nak tak botol nih? (Dia nampak botol Pepsi kosong). Kakak naklah
Ummi: Tak nak, Nak buat apa tuh?
Izzaty: Kakak jaga botol nih ajelah. (Sambil tu dia isikan air sampai penuh ) Yang ini Kakak tak payah bagi makan. Ummi, nama dia Watermelon
Ummi: (keras perut menahan ketawa) kakak belalah hamster
Izzaty,: tak apalah Ummi, biar kakak besar dulu, nanti beli hamster dgn duit kakak. Tak payah guna duit Babah.

So sampai sekarang botol yang nama Watermelon tu ada lagi. Izzaty bela buat pet dia. Tak payah bagi makan!!!

I have been busy lately. With work, with the family, with my new passion, three blogs to update!! My stories were everywhere. Anyway, my youngest sister got married on the 9th Mar 2008. A day after the election. I wont touch on the election, it was all over the newspapers and other people's blog. You can get enough information on the election from them.

The kenduri did not go without any problems, mak and abah were busy commuting between kampung to HKL or kampung to Hospital Putrajaya. Abah is still under treatment until the 4th Mar 2008. Both of them refused to use the catering services, both insisted on berkampung and masak. Then, Pak Lah announced the election date, since everybody else busy with the election, there are not enough person to help with the cooking, washing, setting up the table.

But alhamdullilah, we managed to pull through eventhough it was raining the whole day.

So, here is the photo. Selamat Pengantin Baru and Semoga kekal hingga akhir hayat. There's only one "pesanan" for both of them, make an effort to show your affection to each other for as long as you two are married to each other, never take each other for granted, oops... that's two!!

It has been long time since I last blog. No reason offered for the long absent. I have been reading other's people blog. Too lazy to write for my own. Now, I have found a new motivation to blog. Watch up for the new look. Anyway, Abah is ok now. He completed his 6 cycles of chemo, well almos completed. He did not complete the last one. He had it for two days then his body couldnt take it anymore. The chemo triggered the gastric juice and cause him to have chest pain. Doctor suspected it to be heart attack but after 3 days of monitoring, there was no evidence of heart attack. Doctor stopped the chemotheraphy. He is home now, busy preparing for Siti's wedding. Other than that, he is ok. Alhamdullilah.