They are the bestest friend ever!










They can be the bestest friend but when it comes to bergaduh, my blood pressure can go upstair!! We went to a wedding yesterday with their Opah (as usual, Amir had his class). The wedding was simple and sweet. Before we went back, the kids nak main dulu dekat lobby. Sent Mak home, went straight home.

Malam tu, Amir ajak makan kat Bangi, nak makan steam boat. Dinner was really good. Adik and kakak makan banyak betul. We finished up everything in the steam boat wok. Boleh pegi lagi ni, provided that Amir pays for it!!

My life is full of complaints. I can't help it. Kalau anak malas nak belajar, would you just keep quite? If somebody berbelanja unnecessarily, would you just go with the flow when it will affect your yearly appraisal later?(this is another story!!)

I have given specific instruction to Kakak to do her math assignment at rumah Ibu in the afternoon. She did not do it. When I asked what did she do, she said she was playing with Iman. Later, after dinner, again I specifically asked her to do her math assignment. When I came back from the tuition center, she was doing her math assignment in front of the tv. I was mad like hell. Amir was home and he did not say anything bila nampak anak dia buat math in front of the TV. I cannot tahan with this madness. I am raising my kids alone!! The tuition center story? Ooh, I tell u about that later. I had a talk with Amir about Kakak, her studies etc. You know what he said, Kakak is only in tahun 3. My God, I can read English book by the time I was 10-year-old, I can draw very well and win art competition by then. I want her to find something special inside her but we as the parents have to help her finding her talent.

Today's kids are different. They do not have the luxury that we have before. We can take our time to succeed in life but not today's kids. But as usual, Amir is being Amir....

Last night after dinner, I went out alone to the tuition center to enroll Kakak. I cannot stand it anymore. She is spending too much time in front of the TV, playing and wasting time. Amir is not doing anything. Paid RM55 and she will start this Thursday. Her exam will be on next Monday. Macam mana tu?

Sigh, how I wish Amir would contribute more. I know he is busy with his studies and his work but he is a different type of student now. He cannot expect he can be like he used to be as a student during his college year dulu. He has a family to take care of too. I can't do this alone. Most of the house work, I have taken over. Entahlah, susah nak cakap and susah nak buat macam mana.

I wish I have a better story to write but life has not been easy for me.

I was on MC last Friday. Demam and flu, Amir and the kids also down with flu and batuk. We sent the kids to the babysitter while both of us terbaring kat rumah. Teruk betul rasanya with no one is functioning but somebody has to get up to do the cooking and etc. So, with no other option left, I had to prepare lunch. It was already 2.30 pm. Later, in the evening, we packed everything and went to mak's. Picked up the kids and had dinner there.

I had a big fight with Amir. I felt that he doesn't care about the baby. I know he doesn't want it in the first place. My biological clock is ticking. I can't wait for next year. He never asked about the baby, when is my next appointment, is the baby ok, how much I pay for the monthly check up etc. I was feeling really sad. He said, he's tired with the assignment, the kids and his work. He doesn't have anything left inside him to ask about the baby. Tak tahulah, a simple gesture of care and love is good enough for me. I hope he will change after the baby comes out. Mak told me, Ayah prayed for a baby boy for us kat Mekah masa dia pegi umrah hari tu.

Sunday 23/07/2006:

Amir was out from morning till 12 midnight. He went to his class in the morning, later in the evening, he had to entertain Sirim's guest from Uganda. Siap bawak pi shopping, dinner etc. I work my butt off kat rumah, cook breakfast, lunch and dinner, bawak the kids main kat playground, wash my car (yes, I washed my car!!) with the kids, pegi beli kasut sekolah kakak kat Puchong Prima (kasut tak kering punya pasal), iron the clothes, get the kids ready for bed, washed the dishes and buang sampah. Pheww....and he was enjoying seafood dinner kat muara!! Geram betul. Well, he did apologize to me but that was not enough. Amir would go all the way to gembirakan orang lain. Berkorban apa saja sampai tuang his afternoon class to entertain orang lain. Kalau bini sendiri, mintak maaflah, kenalah pandai-pandai membahagiakan diri sendiri. I said to him, you have no idea what you would miss untill it is too late. You always takes things for granted. Just because I am here, hidup lagi, you have no idea what you have!! Geram betul....

Tsunami in Jawa Barat was really bad. Death toll rose to 531, with more than 270 missing. It was so sad to see gambar budak-budak yang terkorban. I can't imagine how traumatic the people in that place. I can only pray that they will bersabar and redha dengan ketentuan Illahi. Those yang terkorban, semoga mereka dimasukkan ke dalam golongan yang beriman. Last May, 6.3 magnitude quake kills more than 5,800 people in Jawa Barat jugak. Macam-macam bencana melanda Indonesia. But according to Dr Ari, this is one way of controlling the population naturally. 5800 people died is nothing to Indonesia. 531 people died is even nothing to them. They have 210 million people, only fourth after China, India and USA. That's another way of looking thing in different perspective. But loss of life is still loss of life. When Banda Aceh was destroyed by the Dec 26, 2004 Tsunami, 300,000 people was killed. Lot of professionals mati dalam bencana tu. Even Dr Ari has to go teach kat university Aceh because the lecturer yang used to teach the subject terkorban.

Alahai.....Mak Et. Tak habis-habis cerita pasal Mak ET nak kahwin. Selama sebulanlah, cerita Mak ET nak kahwin nanti. Naik meluat pulak nanti..... gaun pengantin harga 40K. Itu tak masuk baju and gaun pengantin yang lain.

Last night during dinner, adik bercakap tak habis-habis. Orang lain dah siap dinner, baru dia nak start makan. I have to wait for her sambil layan cerita dia.

Ummi: Mana adik sorok tupperware Ummi yang tudung warna hitam tu?
Adik: Kawan adik yang sorok. Adik dah cakap tapi dia naughty sangat. Dia sorok jugak lepas tu tak ingat kat mana?

Before tidur at 10.00 pm:

Adik: Ummi, adik rasa nak telefon kawan adiklah.
Ummi: I don't know her number.
Adik: Nombor dia nombor tiga
Ummi: Nombor telefon mesti ada lapan nombor
Adik: Ok, nombor dia tiga dan lapan
Ummi: Call you call her tommorrow morning? Ini dah lewat, kawan adik tu dah tidur
Adik: oklah

Her invisible friend............

Went to the furniture store last night, place our order and deposit. The sofa will come in two weeks time. Amir wanted the one with leather frame, I said no, I have enough of leather sofa. So, we went to another store. It's good to be pregnant, laki kena dengar cakap bini!! Anyway, I think I have to change my curtain to suit the color Amir picked for the sofa. Green curtain and red sofa frame do not come together for sure!! Tapi tak tahulah, may be those ID people have another opinions on what color match with what color. Now, it seems that everything clashes with everything and it works just fine.

Anyway, we had our dinner at 9.30 pm at A&W, PJ. Adik was so hungry that she ate the whole cheese burger by herself. Kakak had chicken sandwich, then she wanted curly fries and ice cream to which I said no. I already asked her in the first place what she wanted and she only wanted chicken sandwich and nothing else. I had waffle with two scoops of ice cream and shared with Amir. The place was quite packed last night. There's one Chinese family came in after we have sat at our table. They were all kecoh and kepoh. They sat to the table next to us. the grandfather (I think) sat the closest to us. He did not have anything but he was coughing and buang his kahak on the tissue at the table. Eewww....rasa nak termuntah kat situ. I still have a bit chunk of waffle left on my plate.

Adik was restless last night. She woke up few times. I guess it is because of the late dinner and full stomach.

Siti Nurhaliza finally made the announcement. The bertunang, nikah will be on the 21 August, the 28th will be the reception in KLCC and 3 Sept will another reception kat Kuala Lipis. Finally, dah naik menyampah dengar pasal dia nak kahwin, pasal Datuk K. Ikut suka dialah, asal bahagia. Cerita Tsunami 5 meters height in Jawa Barat yesterday pun ditenggelamkan oleh cerita Siti nak kahwin dgn Datuk K. Anyway, I think kalau I pegi rumah Mak Cu kat Kuala Lipis tu on 3 Sept, may be boleh tengok Siti bersanding kot. Rumah Mak Cu tu cuma sepelaung dari rumah Siti. Kalau Siti tak buat kecoh macam ni, may be her marriage to duda ni is much sweeter.

Went out Saturday night looking for a sofa. Found the one that we like but did not place our order yet. Thought of going back on Sunday nite to place our order but MIL & FIL came for dinner. Tak prepare anything for them as they came quite mengejut so Amir went out to buy nasi and sup ekor.

I cooked kuah kacang and nasi impit. The kuah kacang did not turn up as good as I want it to be. Make kuah lontong and sambal udang. That was ok though taklah sedap sgt. Lama tak masak....

Went to see the gynae on Saturday. Did not do any scanning, just a normal check up. Received one jab for tetanus. Adik was with me in the examination room. She was hiding behind the chair when I received my jabs. Dia takut. Still can feel the pain (lenguh) until today.

The 69ers 20th Anniversary Bash will be in November this year, after many votes for November. Well, I won't be coming as my due date will be in November.

Mie was hospitalized for denggi yesterday at Putra Jaya Hospital. Mak and abah went back to Jerantut yesterday morning. Mak might be coming back to stay with Ija but may be after sending Danial off to Kuantan this weekened. Amir came back from Penang yesterday night. He did not buy me anything but I am happy he's home. I miss having him around the house.

17/7:

I should've update the posting last week but did not manage to do it. Well, actually I malas nak update!! Mie was discharged from the hospital but have to do blood test everyday. He is ok now. Mak won't be coming since he's ok.

Today, adik is still unable to watch Disney Channel on Astro. Amir locked the channel and forgot the password. Luckily, she did not "mengamuk". Anyway, mak and abah are going back tommorrow. That means I will be with the kids until Amir gets back. Sigh.... I hate him going away too long. There will be more trip outstation. Luckily, I am feeling much better now even though I easily get tired by end of the day. Yesterday, I manage to cook asam pedas.

Nothing really interest me lately, so I may not able to write something interesting. Well, not I normally write interestingly! Anyway, I am supposed to see my gynea this week but I did not have the time to see her. Amir is always outstation. I can't handle the two kids at the clinic, I guess I have to wait until Amir is here. Kesian this baby......

I better sign off now, I am running out of idea again.

Amir off to Penang today for 3 days. Mak and abah will stay with me until Wednesday which is a good thing for me. I don't have to rush adik and kakak to rumah Cik Mu and school, pick them up in the evening and return home at night.

Italy won the World Cup in a shoot up. I didn't watch it but heard it over the news.

Life is still much the same everyday. I am running out of idea. I guess I don't do much lately. Weekend is about cleaning up the house. Amir has been running the household for the past two months (since I found out that I am pregnant and had a terrible morning sickness). Everything is everywhere. The dishes were stuffed into the cabinet, all the baju and whatnot were in the laundry basket. I spend half a day folding and arranging baju into the closet.

I guess I will sign off now. I am running out of idea again!!

Ok, this is the real posting for today. I copied from my posting from another blog on the previous posting. (Notice there are few posting already and all dated today!!).

Well, Amir came back at 11 pm last night from Batu Pahat. We were already asleep. He will be away again to Penang next week for three days. Entahlah, I miss having him around the house. The kids pun dah bising coz their Baba is always working outstation.

Mak is coming this weekend, to send Sukri to UKM. Abah may not come coz Fiqar has to go to school the next day.

I am running out of idea.

Making a comeback!
It has been a while since I last blog. In fact my last entry was in March. A lot has been going on. I got pregnant! I am now 21 weeks into my pregnancy. Feeling much better. I had terrible all day sickness from week 8 to 14. Been gaining too much weight already. The kids are excited about the baby. Amir is excited too but not at the beginning. Anyway, Amir just came back from Uganda yesterday night but he's away again to BP (Batu Pahat). Sigh....
What else should I update? I have a lot of photos to be uploaded. May be I do that later.
I am running out of idea.

Spring Cleaning on Chinese New Year
It has been a while since I last put me entry. Long Chinese New Year &Awal Muharam break saw me doing spring cleaning. The house is almost ready, well it is 99% ready.ANother 1% is more on the minor repair and touch up here and there.
Spring cleaning on Chinese New Year ---- my chinese neighbour surely watched me in horror. It is a taboo for them to swept the floor or curse on the first day of CNY. It is like sweeping away the luck for that year. Not that I curse but Kakak and Adik really made my blood goes upstair!! Amir was not helping at all. He had exam and need to study. Anyway, I bet my neighbour said this year sure suey itu orang.
I remembered one story I read in the newspaper about sweeping the floor on CNY. She is a westerner married to a Chinese. They had been living in the State for sometimes when they finally resided in Malaysia. Her first experience celebrating CNY with her in-law was a disaster. On the first day of CNY, she vacumed the whole house. Her MIL was screaming at her. She was really upset for upsetting the MIL but the only consolation she had is that all the luck that she had swept away is still very much inside the house ---- in the vacum bag!!

The Joy of Working - How to find it?
Millions go to work everyday, buthow many can say they are happy working?
Work can be so specialised it isdifficult to see how you are connected to society. When you don't see the connection you may not find meaning in what you do. Without meaning there is no joy.
Salary and compensation no matter how generous has a limited appeal. To love what you do in a lasting way, you must find through your work, the connection with self and society. Only then can your work be your bliss and your life whole. A humble hawker who sees his role in humanity finds happiness knowing he has contributed and added value to society.
To paraphase Pop John Paul II, work bears a mark of humanity, the mark of a person operating within a community of persons. Through work we develop individually and add to the growth around us.
Excerpt from Zubedy's advertisement in STAR 21 Dec 2005
Have I found mine?
I am not so sure. One thing I know I have to move AGAIN to another office. Don't know what to say. 2005 is not my year. I pray to Allah to murahkan my rezeki in 2006. Amin.

World AIDS DAY
Stayed up late on Monday (28 Nov) to complete the Innovation Road Map. I missed the "CEO checking session" on Friday, so Monday kena pulun habis-habis. Thought by Monday, it would be over but dream on. Came Tuesday, I was in the office until 11.40 pm to complete the paper. I already went back at 10 pm but was being called by CEO on my way home. Siap kena tegur lagi by CEO - "Sapa suruh balik? Kena siapkan kerja dulu"! (Something like that). Hey, I waited from 7.00 pm, by 10 pm, he was still in the meeting.
Anyway, I hope CEO would be serik to ask me to do any job for him next time! Finally, got everything agreed by CEO. I went on with the printing (12 copies) and almost toward the end, the printer ran out of catridge. Called Zuhdi and being Zuhdi, he immediately called Kak Min nak tanya mana catridge. It was right in front of his eyes. Anyway, CEO did all the changing himself and actually helped me print out the last 24 copies. Menggigil lutut coz he was reading the paper as the paper came out from the printer. Dalam hati, janganlah dia jumpa yang dia tak berkenan lagi ni.
Today is the World AIDS Day. Heard over the radio ERA this morning.
I am not really sure how I feel about this issue. Benci ada, kesian pun ada and takut pun ada. I guess a lot of people also feels the same eay. We are still lack of awareness on this issue especially issue on how to handle people with HIV positive.
Abg Sidek passed away 10 years ago. Not many people knew he died of AIDS but I knew. He used to be one of my favorite cousins. I remembered him talking about birds' name, the nest and the color, whether it can be eaten or not. I guess he loved birds.
He was in and out from Pusat Serenti 3 times. One day, I met him at rumah Pak We. He did not talk much but Pak We said Abd Sidek spent a lot of times kat Surau. Then I heard he was hospitalized for pneumonia (classic symptom of AIDS), then he had black patches on the skin all over the body. He died not long after that. Pak We was devastated. He wanted to mandikan Abd Sidek at home but the hospital did not allow him. Abd Manja said Abd Sidek died of hepatitis but he just kept quiet after that. I knew, abah also knew.
Would it be different now if Abd Sidek still alive and HIV positive? There were no support system back then. Family was too embarashed to tell. No one talked about that.

Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam
Went to Afifah's wedding at Jubli Perak Hall, SUK in Shah Alam. Arrived at 8.30 pm. The wedding was simple but we had our nasi minyak at 9.30 pm. Adik dah lapar sangat-sangat. She had cake (which is supposed to be the buah tangan) and fruit. Finally after all the pantun-pantun, speeches and singing (ya, nasyid song performed live by what-the-group's-name) over, we had our nasi minyak. All the lauk and nasi habis in no time, adik yang dah makan cake & fruit tu pun makan nasi punyalah banyak jugak. She must be really hungry.
Anyway, Afifah was really prety that nite. I don't think Abg Long & Kak Long actually had their dinner that nite. Tak nampak pun both of them on the main table with the pengantin. Almaklumlah dpt menantu pertama.
Jumpa most of the sedara mara - kak Rodi from KB pun ada, mak Itam, Nana, Kak Elan & Abg Nuar, Kak Yah and ramai lagilah. Yang tak ingat nama pun ada.
Amir insisted nak pegi rumah Pak Ili that nite. Apa lagi, we headed for Putra Jaya. Kakak & Adik dah mengantuk. Tidur all the way there. W e reached there at 11.30 pm. The house is huge and look very expensive with all the kayu berukir from bawah until the 3rd floor. It's a 2 and a half storey semi-d house. Meet all the saudara mara amir pulak kat situ. I didn't not have anything eventhough there were still a lot of food. We left Pak Ili's house at 12.00 with two big plastic bags full with nasi beriani & lauk-lauk, laksa asam etc. Tak habis makan for one week ni.
Sampai rumah at 12.30 am. Get the kids ready for bed. Went to sleep at 1.00 am.
2.00 am :
Amir: Ida, dengar tak suara budak ketawa kat luar?
Me: What? (orang syok tidur kena kejut)
Amir: Dengar tak suara budak ketawa kat luar?
Me: Suara apa? pukul 2. 00 pagi, sapa yang duduk kat luar?
Amir: cuba dengar betul-betul. (Amir look out through the curtain)
Me: Tak nampak apa-apa pun. ( the street light kat jalan and kat play ground tu memang terang)
Went back to bed and I heard THE SUARA and it was mengilai type of laughter!
Me: sapa pulak yang duduk kat luar? Sometimes, burung pun boleh buat suara mcm tu.
Amir: Tapi ada suara orang berborak jugak.
Me: Entahlah, eee...mengantuklah --- zzzzzzzz
The next morning, terfikir semula - what was it? Was it orang, a bird or was it "KEMBALIKAN HIDUP AKU"?

Jalan USJIO November 24, 2005
I am supposed to continue with my book review. Obviously, ilham tak datang lagi.
Semalam jamuan raya SRM, ramai dijemput and ramai tak datang. Food was plentiful, siap tapau untuk makan dinner. Seronok tak payah nak last night. Amir balik dengan the kids bawak pulut kuning and kari (mak bagi). Aiyoo, sapa nak makan semua tu. At last, mana yang boleh simpan, simpan dlm freezer. I had pulut kuning skit, still kenyang from the jamuan. Adik meragam sebab penat main and tak cukup tidur. Dia makan serunding yang Yanti bagi dengan nasi beriani. Sedap serunding tu. Homemade by Yanti's aunt.
Heard something funny over the radio last evening. The DJs were asking listener to call in on funniest and stranges street or kampung name. A lot of callers call. Ade Kpg langak Ikan mati, Jln Snooker, Jln Buang Siul and a lot more. But one guy called the DJ and told them that he saw a street name of "USJIO".
DJ: Wow, that's a strange name, Usjio!
Caller: ya
DJ: Where are you, anyway?
Caller: Um.., I'm at umm USJ
DJ: Ha ha ha That read as USJ 10
Caller: Oh ya...! It's USj 10, Aiyoo I didn't realise it
DJ: Are you trying to funny so that you can win the prize?
Caller: No, no, I totally read it wrongly.
DJ: Are you one of those who shop at "LOTIO" in Bkt Bintang?
Caller: HA ha ha
DJ: Where are you from? Are you from out of town?
Caller: I'm from PJ!!
DJ: HA ha ha

Entry for November 20, 2005

Last Friday, kakak mengadu kepala dia gatal and suruh check. Guess what, ada kutu rupanya!! And she went down running annoucing to Amir, dia ada kutu!! Aargh....
Check kepala adik as well and found one big ibu kutu!! "Baba, kepala adik ada ulat!!" Aargh... Hello kids, this is KUTU!! bukan diamond on the head!!
Malam tu jugak pegi Guardian, cari syampu kutu. I have been sleeping with the kids since last Monday, my head might be one of tempat ternakan kutu jugak!! The next morning, ops kutu.. (syampu & tukar all the bedsheet, pillow case). -- see photo
Sure berjangkit from either anak Mak Lida or Mak Usu kat Perak or Nisha or Fifah kat Pahang. Call Ina nak inform Fifah might ada kutu jugak if she's not the pembawa! Ha ha Ina gelak when she heard about adik ada ibu kutu kat kepala.
Call Siti nak suruh check kepala dia. Dia tidur dengan Nisha masa kat kampung.
Last Saturday, open house rumah En Din & Zul. Then pegi rumah En Mat. Lama tak jumpa En Mat and Anum. Dah ada lima orang anak!! The last jumpa, they only have three (Qistina was still a baby)
Sunday, open house kat rumah Ayu. Siap pesan makan kenyang-kenyang sebab malas nak masak dinner (bagus punya mak!). 9.00 o'clock, masing-masing kata lapar. Nak tak nak terpaksa masak jugak. Masak nasi lemak sebab sambal nasi lemak yang mak buat last week (simpan dlm freezer tau!) ada lagi.

Entry for November 17, 2005
My first blogging ever!!LIfe has been slow for me and it's getting slower. Then I decide to blog. Got a lot to learn to blog. Thank you Nani for encouraging me.
Tadi receive letter from MAKNA minta support & donation for adik Ariff Ibrahim whi is suffering from abdomen cancer. His father is a rubber tapper with pendapatan RM20 sehari. Mom is not working. So, sapa-sapa nak donate boleh masukkan sumbangan ke account Maybank 5140 7500 1920 or send a cheque to MAKNA, No 26-3, Jln 10/55A, Tmn Setiawangsa, 54200 Kuala Lumpur.
I lost a good friend to cancer 3-year ago. She was really young, leaving a good husband & two young sons. SInce then, I becomes a contributor to MAKNA. Tak banyak pun tapi I got a peace of mind knowing somebody sufferings from cancer can benefit from my contributions. Cancer is a silent killer. Y passed away 6-month after she was diagnosed with cancer. Haven't seen Y's husband & sons since then. But at last, jumpa juga kat KK last raya. The sons (M & A) have grown so tall. S is still single. We promised to meet up lagi kat KL.
Mak buat open house last Sunday. S datang dengan girlfriend. Oo... dah ada girlfriend rupanya. Why still single, tak tahulah. The girl is so nice and polite.