My life is full of complaints. I can't help it. Kalau anak malas nak belajar, would you just keep quite? If somebody berbelanja unnecessarily, would you just go with the flow when it will affect your yearly appraisal later?(this is another story!!)

I have given specific instruction to Kakak to do her math assignment at rumah Ibu in the afternoon. She did not do it. When I asked what did she do, she said she was playing with Iman. Later, after dinner, again I specifically asked her to do her math assignment. When I came back from the tuition center, she was doing her math assignment in front of the tv. I was mad like hell. Amir was home and he did not say anything bila nampak anak dia buat math in front of the TV. I cannot tahan with this madness. I am raising my kids alone!! The tuition center story? Ooh, I tell u about that later. I had a talk with Amir about Kakak, her studies etc. You know what he said, Kakak is only in tahun 3. My God, I can read English book by the time I was 10-year-old, I can draw very well and win art competition by then. I want her to find something special inside her but we as the parents have to help her finding her talent.

Today's kids are different. They do not have the luxury that we have before. We can take our time to succeed in life but not today's kids. But as usual, Amir is being Amir....

Last night after dinner, I went out alone to the tuition center to enroll Kakak. I cannot stand it anymore. She is spending too much time in front of the TV, playing and wasting time. Amir is not doing anything. Paid RM55 and she will start this Thursday. Her exam will be on next Monday. Macam mana tu?

Sigh, how I wish Amir would contribute more. I know he is busy with his studies and his work but he is a different type of student now. He cannot expect he can be like he used to be as a student during his college year dulu. He has a family to take care of too. I can't do this alone. Most of the house work, I have taken over. Entahlah, susah nak cakap and susah nak buat macam mana.

I wish I have a better story to write but life has not been easy for me.